Discipline is remembering what you want.

So today is the second day of me actually following the Body by Vi lifestyle and the eat when hungry notion. I stepped on the scale and I was down -3.4 lbs. YAY ME!! That's fan-freaking-tastic, and on top of that my period tracker on my iphone (doesn't everyone have that app??) says I should start today...which means I can't say the gain that I usually have is due to my period...isn't it funny the things we tell ourselves when we gain weight...its water weight, my period is starting...the earth is on its axis and its making the gravity pull down more, so everyone weighs more....what you haven't used that one, huh, maybe it was just me.

So I feel better today, I had my shake for breakfast yesterday...I made a cup of earl grey tea and put the two scoops of Body by Vi mix and it was like the best f'ing London Fog I've ever had. So yummy. Now by 10 am I was ready to eat the arm of the person who sits in the cubicle next to me, so I made a healthy choice and had a banana, and another coffee (I'm addicted to coffee, and I'm not letting go of it), in my coffee now I just have skim milk...that's it. I'm becoming quite the coffee snob...I used to take 2 sugar and a shit load of cream. So coffee with skim milk is a BIG deal to me. I pat myself on the back every time I have one.

Then I had a big ass salad with chicken in it, with honey mustard dressing, and not fake honey mustard dressing, but real honey and mustard. Was tasty...Yes, the salad had bacon in it...but c'mon, it wasn't the poutine I was staring at from the Battered Fish when I walked by, so all in all, I kicked ass at lunch.

Then for dinner I went back to the delicious London Fog from the morning, and I had a banana again....and later I ate 3 pringle chips...I realize this in no way constitutes a healthy choice, HOWEVER...I could have ate the whole can, so taking 3 chips and saying thats it...was a healthy choice in my book. So stop your judging!! I'm trying here.

So today I am going to try and stick to it again...I think it helps knowing I have friends who read my blog and keep me 'honest' with myself.

"One should eat to live, not live to eat." ~Cicero, Rhetoricorum LV

...or so they say. I am an emotional eater. There I said it. I think I have a food addiction, I say think because I'm not quite sure. I know I really, really, like to eat, particularly things I like...not things that are good for me.
I am currently reading a book on emotional eating and I'm getting the message in it...basically its this: only eat when you're hungry. WHAT!!! Holy shit, that's crazy. You mean to say I spent $14.99 + tax on this book to find that out...well it turns out, eating just when you're hungry is actually harder than it sounds. I mean...I'm conditioned to eat breakfast, lunch and supper at certain times...what if I'm not hungry then...do I really want to eat at 8:30 if I'm hungry then?? What about everyone always saying don't eat after 8 pm...or 6 pm, or...well you get the picture.

So I'm going to try this in conjunction with my Body By Vi lifestyle. My friend Stephanie has done her ninety day challenge on Body by Vi and she's now a distributor, she's lost 15 lbs and gained lean muscle mass and dropped inches...sounds wonderful. So I decided to try it...I am failing at it currently. Apparently for something to work, you actually have to do what it says...I have a shake for breakfast and lunch (or in my case for dinner, I eat lunch) then healthy snacks in between. Sounds easy right...well its not when you have no will power to say no to stuff that's not offered...or even stuff your walking by...like cookies put outside my cubicle at work. WHO THE F PUT THEM THERE!!!!!! I'm still looking for the culprit, when found I will sit on them till they plead for mercy, and believe me they will cause I'm currently f'ing heavy!!

I so had all intentions on putting my weight down in this blog, but I cant' seem to type it...I'll say this, its more than 150 and less than 250 lbs...there you go. LOL, maybe I'll be able to write it once I lose some weight...but not yet. That's going to take some serious guts on my part, to let it out...I can pretent right now, but once its written down here...its free for everyone to see. So bare with me, while I try to get my mind around that.

So this is my journey to weight loss...God Help Me...and everyone around me...oh and if you know who put those cookies outside my cubicle, let me know...I'll keep your identity anonymous.